More snowfall and it seems like we are tappering off with the white stuff with springtime mist. Tornado season is right around the corner. I hope that my life doesn't participate emmulating the weather. Spring is usually my favorite season, though. Nature's green is gold and spring always seems like it holds so much promise. I kind of feel like things are going in a good direction. The more I'm honest with myself and others about what I want, don't want, can put up with, and can't the more liberated I feel. Honesty may be quick and painful but hiding things just takes the same kind of pain that honesty has but it's an internalized, drawn out hurt. I found that I became my worst oppressor when I didn't just communicate the simple things like "This is who I am, this is what I'm feeling right now, this is everything about me". I'm not one for much mystery anymore. It just seems like some game. If it weren't a game then why would you apply sayings like "Don't show all the cards you're holding." to your life. I'm not afraid of being hurt by anyone anymore. It's just how I handle it from here on out that is the real deal. As far as "laying my cards on the table", I'm not afraid of being vulnerable. I do set my boundaries but I've never been one to close myself off and I never can be. I'm addicted to the human condition and taking life straight up with no chaser. I'm finding it much more visceral than building walls to make me less compassionate like some other people do. Meh. To each his own.
And those flakes.....they can keep on coming. I don't care if it so thick that I can't see in front of my face. I'm still going to dance and spin around in it.
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